How fragile we are 

It’s a funny thing life. We can be sailing along thinking we are ok, and then suddenly a thunderbolt comes from nowhere and knocks us down. 

That is how I felt when I was assaulted and suddenly had to lose my home, my job, my independence. 

That is how I feel today. Because today I took my dad to hospital to find out what is wrong with him. And today we found out that he has multiple myeloma(blood cancer) and several sites of plasmacytoma, the largest of which is at the base of his skull causing his hearing, eyesight and throat problems. He will start radiotherapy soon, and 9 months of chemotherapy.

We are all so upset and shocked. We always thought dad was the most healthy one. I cannot imagine life without him, I am in no position to carry on without him. I’m not an independent adult with any life of my own. Dad picked me up and kept me going through recent hard times. Mum also says her life would be over without him. 

We are hoping and praying that his treatment will go well with minimal side effects, sending him in to remission. Some people can live with this for years, I hope so much that he will be one of the lucky ones. I am feeling so scared and vulnerable right now, we all are. 

I guess I took him for granted before. I just knew he was there. But life has plenty of shocks and surprises up its sleeve.. Sometimes just to wake us up and shake us out of our complacency. It certainly is working on that front. 

Author: halfthegirlblog

Poet, storyteller, songwriter, photographer, artist, lonely dreamer, despairing believer in God. I am trying to rebuild my life after some bad times and mental health issues.

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