A Poem to Loneliness

In your blanket of security
How you bathe me in your familiar shroud
I don’t wanna be your bitch no more
I cry out loud
As daily, nightly you smother me
Oh loneliness go fuck yourself
No wait, please stay .. another day
Tomorrow set me free
Yes then
We’ll see

I know you well
Though a stranger you seem
We’ve been here before
When you strangled me so
I screamed in your face
I told you to go
So you did.. seemingly
I know people were here
But it wasn’t enough
I could still smell you near

What will it take?
What can I do?
I’ve known you so long
Is it here I belong?
It could be ok if I didn’t look out
Or know of the world I am dreaming about
Because, Loneliness, my heart-it begs
It scratches and howls like a wolf in the night
That I open the doors and allow it some light
I want.. so much.. more than I can say
But all I do is dance with you each day
The waltz of a life that I never could live
To music of people I cannot forgive

Oh loneliness, how I will leave you someday
I’m sorry, I must.. only just not today

Author: halfthegirlblog

Poet, storyteller, songwriter, photographer, artist, lonely dreamer, despairing believer in God. I am trying to rebuild my life after some bad times and mental health issues.

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