Insomnia

4am we meet again
Where shadows creep as people sleep
Spiders crawl down from the wall
And silverfish do as they please
Mischief making, such a ball
I’m on my knees
Free fall

4am we meet again
Where time is halved as people snore
Creatures sniff around outside
And little lights up in the sky
Shooting past me as I hide
I don’t know why
I cried

4am we meet again
Where bodies rest as people dream
Party animals roll home
And tiny sounds prick up my ears
Probably it’s just the wind
But all these years
I sinned

4am we meet again
Where songbirds praise as people rest
Maybe some awaken now
And go to work or far away
Soon the world will take full swing
What could this day
Now bring

Sleepy eyes
A tired head
And then
I meet you back in bed

Whispering Ghost 

Hand outstretched to nowhere

Holding.. Waiting..

Do you see me?
I’m not getting much back

Only silent echos

Of you

And things I lack
Oh whispering ghost

It’s you I seem to feel the most

But you don’t see me

And it’s you whose meant to really be

The God damn ghost

Not me.. Not me
So set me free now, set me free

Let me dance and sing again

Hold my face up in the rain

And smile that I can be

Free

Just me

L o v e

The candle flickered against her breath.. darting and ducking, rising back up tall then crouching down again. She felt its warmth against her soft glowing skin as shadows moved and danced across the walls. There was no sound other than of her own breathing.. and the small murmur of her still beating heart was more of a dull vibration.

Long blonde hair draped down the sides of her face. Hands rested across each other on the table, her painted pink nails shone boldly. Suddenly she felt a wet drop upon them.. and with her mind not being in the room as she began weeping gently, the wetness of that droplet took her quite by surprise.

The emptiness of the room was synonymous with how her heart felt, but there was more than that. More than just emptiness, if emptiness is a thing at all. What she was feeling right there that night was a vicious cocktail of all the longings of the heart and soul, something so deep.. So profound. So painful and aching within her very life source. It was like a gruesome roadkill she couldn’t bear to look at being locked in with her.

She needed some respite, and the bottle of red she had saved for the right occasion seemed appropriate – even if when she bought it she had envisioned the occasion to be a slightly happier one.

The glass was large and the wine slipped down like a medicine ball crashing into her tummy. Seconds turned into minutes into hours into oblivion. This escape plan had not worked at all, for now she lay heaped on the floor wailing loudly like a child into a cushion and feeling the pain even more intensely than before.

‘I didn’t want to fall for him. I shouldn’t have. I haven’t have I?? Really??  I literally have”

She was wailing so loudly she didn’t hear him knocking at first, and when she did she fell silent pretending not to be there. But his voice called out her name, she heard him. It sounded like heaven. The voice that belonged to the man she knew she should never talk to again.

So she let him in.

Fearful little Poem

I am trapped endlessly, caged by fear
I cannot be hurt in here
But, alas, nor can I be loved
The one thing
Yes the only thing I ever craved
Is out of reach
Strutting past where I can see
But never touch
I long so much
To be unafraid
But I have been hurt so many times
By those at school and work and play
So all my trust is gone today
And now I am trapped endlessly, caged by fear
I cannot be hurt in here
But, alas, nor can I be loved.

Poem-I am an Island

I am a little island somewhere
With waves lapping at my shore
They are whispering of laughter
And a man I could adore

I sit and watch them ebbing, flowing
Gently wash my aching feet
I wish I could be something else
With others I could meet

I am a little island somewhere
With waves lapping at my shore
They are whispering of laughter
And a child I could adore

Eyes closed I see you happy playing
And I write your name in sand
Your love awakens me to life
As you hold onto my hand

I am a little island somewhere
Just as lonely as the night
All consuming, daylight looming
Drowning out in pale dim light