Mess (poem)

Look here i stand
Dark clothes in dark shadows
And in this peace
My head is thumping loudly
Saying to me
Over and again..

Girl, you’re a mess
Nobody ever liked you
They could not care less
Cos you’re a mess
Just look at you
You look so fat and ugly
Wearing that dress
You dirty mess

Disconnect poem

Is there common ground
That we have found?
I’m yearning to belong
We’re breathing
We are hurting
But the pain you hide
Somehow I know inside

Not a day goes by
That I don’t die
Another part of me
I’m losing
I am stranded
Won’t you walk with me
And find out what might be

Life is simply there
No-one can share
The path you have to take
We crave more
Real connection
I’ve been searching years
An ocean made of tears

On this boat i drift
I cannot shift
My body will not move
I’m lifeless
I am foolish
That I chose the knife
Instead of living life

Read the message in
The rusty tin
I’m begging you to see
You are beauty
And alive
In ways most never are
I’ll love you from afar

Forevermore

On the Wings of a Prayer

If I doubt you, God. If I doubt you. I look out and I see the feathered creatures of many different colours and sizes. To me, they are indescribable beauty. They are the place I go to see your face. I see you in their eyes and character. I hear you in their perfect song. I watch them fly so close to you. I envy how they know you so.. They belong.

So sweet and pure and full of life. Do they awaken feeling lost and void of purpose?
The way I do each and every day?
I know they don’t. I know they know their place and that they see your face the way I can only long. I hear you in their perfect song. I adore them. I want to adore you.. But wait.. Maybe I do

And Life.. (poem)

It has been an utter waste
As with food I cannot taste
All I have is nothingness
All I am.. No more, no less
A mass of cells
A cow with bells
Take her to market
Hope she sells
Lay down the carpet
Pop the cork
Feast on this banquet
With a fork
And knife
Look.. see
He has his wife

Home alone and shut the door
Lying heaped upon the floor
All I have is alcohol
All I crave is to be whole
A silly fool
Lies in a pool
Of tears and no-one
Hears her call
Open the window
Show yourself
Put on a good show
Cheers to health
And life
Look.. See
She has no life

In the shadows cast.. Poem

Tiny flitter flutter wings
Where up above an angel sings
Tears they trickle for my soul
For how I struggled to feel whole
And down here gathered in the dust
We tried to satisfy the lust
In darkness, in the shadows cast
It couldn’t last

All we did was make a mess
We thrashed about, no more, no less
Unbeknown, the worth of me
Was more than you could ever see
That’s not your problem anyway
I was a toy, you had a play
In hindsight, I was rendered blind
And would rewind

Alone I sit and ponder now
And wish I could just take a bow
Check out from this great big charade
Because I find it all too hard
Right from the start I wasn’t strong
Although I tried so to belong
In daylight, in the dark of night
It was a fight..

Goodnight

For Someone Special (yes you)

I want to take you by the hand

And walk with you, talk with you

Just be with you

I can’t take the pain away

I can only share it as much as I can

I can listen, I can care

All I can do is be there

Though that will never be enough

What do others see?

Someone quiet, someone shy.

And they have no idea why.

But if they could see what I see..

And hear the way you talk to me.. They would know just why I love you

And they would surely love you too

Sometimes I tell you how, if only I could, I would make things better.

It’s true

I wish we were closer,

We could try to take baby steps into the big bad world together

And screw the past that hurt us

I guess what my rambling words add up to is that I’m so thankful you came into my life. You are a gift and you are beautiful. Thank you for being you.

Drip away to nothing.. Poem

Clonk clonk clonk goes the lonely clock
In time with her old fragile tock
And then in chimes another beat
From heels upon her worn out feet
They carry her like deadened weight
The way a train may carry freight
No life, just passing through this place
Tears trickle down lines on her face
And drip away to nothing
Brushing past a painted smile
That kept her going for a while
Until it dripped away to nothing
All was gone
The dreams of him
Or little ones
That love may bring
They faded
And just dripped away to nothing
They were gone