These Skin and Bones – poem

I could write a million poems
Crafted carefully of words so old
Speak softly in the voice God gave
But still my truth would not be told

Some things we simply can’t convey
That dwell within our heart and soul
Pushed in this world, alone we bow
With endless longing to be whole

I heard her say that happiness
Is waking joyful to exist
Oh love – the only key to this
My eyes are shut when I am kissed

We’re people made of candle wax
Though light I shine is wasted here
I long to just be noticed too
I dance around but hide in fear

Let’s sing a pretty song to end
Sad notes and painful undertones
Hope someday through the mist of time
You’ll understand these skin and bones

And Life.. (poem)

It has been an utter waste
As with food I cannot taste
All I have is nothingness
All I am.. No more, no less
A mass of cells
A cow with bells
Take her to market
Hope she sells
Lay down the carpet
Pop the cork
Feast on this banquet
With a fork
And knife
Look.. see
He has his wife

Home alone and shut the door
Lying heaped upon the floor
All I have is alcohol
All I crave is to be whole
A silly fool
Lies in a pool
Of tears and no-one
Hears her call
Open the window
Show yourself
Put on a good show
Cheers to health
And life
Look.. See
She has no life

Melancholy I’m afraid..

I sit and stare ahead of me
There is no bright future to see
All I want right now is poured
To take me from this girl abhorred
To hit this numbness deep inside
And give me somewhere else to hide

You don’t understand my self hatred

And tortured soul i drag around

I never existed long enough to be missed
Came from nowhere, back I go
It matters not, ‘I’ matter not
If I had a gun I would be shot
Straight into oblivion..gone like a puff of smoke
Nothing left
No reminders of this stupid joke
Or simple words that I once spoke

Oh, I wish. I really do. That I could be brave enough to..

The Light Between Leaves – Poem 

I sit and silently stare ahead

The light between leaves dance around walls and bed

Passing heels and children squeals

Men go by with a cough and a sigh

The distant hum of traffic out there

All of the world now going somewhere

But not I
For I sit and wait, in anguish for news

Of whether he may live or die

There were no clues

He seemed so healthy, fit and strong

But inside it secretly ate him away

Wreaking its havoc as we carried on

Taking for granted

The shortness

Of day
So now all I do is look up to the sky

With eyes full of heartbreak

I stamp and ask ‘why?’

The strange way you work

Just a mystery to me

I need him and I am not strong

Cannot cope

Without him

Don’t you see